Wednesday, August 30, 2006

What's the Deal?

I don’t even know what is wrong. But something is wrong. I am so discouraged. Sad. Hopeless.

There have been some very stressful/sad times this summer. But I think I’m over that.

People/situations have unknowingly hurt me a little bit. It stings a little, but it’s the sort of thing where I just move on knowing to trust less and expect less. No biggie.

I have been mildly sick for nearly three weeks, but that’s just annoying- nothing to get upset over.

There are decisions to be made regarding housing, and a car. Sometimes my husband’s job stresses me out. Some of my kids drive me nuts. But again, this is just normal, everyday stuff.

So what the heck is wrong with me?? I actually found myself contemplating quitting school. If you know me, you would know that is completely off the wall. School isn’t even stressing me out. I haven’t been there for months. When I am there, I mostly love it. So why would I even think such a thing, when I am almost done earning my first degree?

I suppose it could be burnout from dealing with my kids all summer long while my husband works long hours. If so, that would be great, because they all go back to school next week. So I hope that is what my problem is.

I wish I could just feel normal and happy right now.