2/16/07
I am SO JEALOUS of all of my friends who get together for bible study each week! I want so badly to be with them. Right now, it just isn’t a good time for me. You know, it’s probably silly, but I feel a bit left out. Just to be clear, I am NOT being left out at all. I was invited. They want me to be there. They are happy to see me the few times I have come. So I understand that it is completely irrational for me to feel left out…LOL.
I guess my fear is that maybe everyone is getting really close and bonded to each other while I am missing out. I really want to become closer with several of these friends. Friendship is a long process though. Sometimes, I wonder if there is a limit on how many close friends a person can have. Will all those friendship vacancies get filled up without me?