Friday, February 16, 2007

2/16/07
I am SO JEALOUS of all of my friends who get together for bible study each week! I want so badly to be with them. Right now, it just isn’t a good time for me. You know, it’s probably silly, but I feel a bit left out. Just to be clear, I am NOT being left out at all. I was invited. They want me to be there. They are happy to see me the few times I have come. So I understand that it is completely irrational for me to feel left out…LOL.

I guess my fear is that maybe everyone is getting really close and bonded to each other while I am missing out. I really want to become closer with several of these friends. Friendship is a long process though. Sometimes, I wonder if there is a limit on how many close friends a person can have. Will all those friendship vacancies get filled up without me?

5 comments:

Jer & Liz Nyenhuis said...

I know that I am not one of "the in-crowd" you are talking about, but I'm your friend...or at least I hope I am...BTW, I hope your kids had fun today!!!

Kendra said...

Sure, You're my friend!

It's really not an "in-crowd" at all. I used to worry that it would turn into that, but I am happy to say, that there doesn't seem to be any "cliques" at all. Everyone seems to be equally welcomed and accepted.

amy said...

I completely understand. Feeling left out is my life. I never get to be a part of anything in the church because of Tony's schedule and lack of child care. So I go on Sunday mornings, when Tony is not working, see everyone once a week, say hello and that is it. I miss having friends and people who used to be interested in what is going on with my life, not that much is, but that's not the point. We used to be so involved with our old church, now it's very difficult to stay involved even a little bit. I want to do so much more and am unable to.

jen hulings said...

Girl, then we just need to hang out sometime when it works for you. I'm ready for spring. It's difficult for me to go each week too. I've been sooo busy and I'm ready for my schedule to slow down.

Amy Jo said...

you know how they say there is always room for jello. Well there is always room for kendra. Corny i know but its the first thing that came to my mind. Seriouly we love you!